I don't like change. I don't like the empty chair at my parent's house. I don't like that my dad wasn't there to buy a firetruck for Luke. I don't like that I don't have my dad there to talk to when things are a mess. I don't like that I don't have my dad there to talk to when things are good. I don't like that I don't have a relationship with my mom and sister the way I did with my dad. I don't like that I will never hear "Love you kid" again from my dad. I don't like that I feel so empty.

Our Terrific Saturday!!!!!!

The first three pics are out of order, but I couldn't figure out how to move them!! Cheryl and me! Our farewell shot, of course taken by ourselves!

So Cheryl is sporting the huge hat and I'm the one getting the look by the lady in the background?

I managed to take this photo while going backwards down the escalator without causing injury to myself or those around me!

Giddy with excitement in the car on the way down.

Sean was thrilled that I kept taking pictures to document our excitement.

When I had said on FB that I sounded like Bea Arthur, Kevin said "that's funny - I woke up looking like Johnny Depp!" This was how I was greeted by him.

I had asked if they were going to wear the puckhat so we would know it was them. We thought it was an amazing coincidence to see some kid wearing a puckhat! We are so quick to catch on....

Lunch was a bit loud, not from us but from the lovely purple haired singer in the lobby. We enjoyed chatting over yummy food and getting to know each other.

This was the coolest fountain I had ever seen! You could push on the ball and it rotated!

Me and Ryan. I have never eaten in a restaurant with such a well behaved child!

Me and Kevin. Not the most flattering shot of me, but Kevin looks great!

Ryan was devastated to see me go. He is hiding the tears here - can't you tell!!

Saturday was a great day! After 2 years we finally got to meet Cheryl, Kevin, and Ryan. We had planned on it for about 2 months, so the excitement had been building! I was a bundle of nerves - I worried so much that they would think I was a big dork (I think they did, but I think they were okay with it ;) ) and they would wonder why they wasted their time driving all they way to Columbus! Well my nervousness was unwarranted, I had a ball. Cheryl is as sweet and fun in person as she is online and Kevin is one of the funniest people I have ever met! My only complaint was the fact I was sick :( and didn't feel 100%. Well that and the American Idol Reject singing outside the restaurant! I think Cheryl secretly loved her singing. We talked and laughed over lunch, wandered through the mall and then went to Toys R Us and did some shopping. I wish we had longer to spend together, but look forward to many more visits in the future! Including the swim in your sweatsuit party!!! I love you, Cheryl and Kevin and am so glad we finally got to meet!!!!!

This is the rabbit on my mom's porch that gets dressed in seasonal outfits. It was a fireman for Halloween! The kids adore it! Some people have concrete geese......

Tara and Mylee. Tara just turned 16.

Tara, Lilly, Christie, Luke, and Gabe.

Tara and Lilly

A tired Lilly!

I really have nothing to blog about. It's the same old same old here. After this weekend I should have some fun news and pictures! Then I will have some exciting posts.

Here are some photos from Thanksgiving. We spent the evening at my mom's with my grandparents, Aunt Lol and Uncle Jimmy, and cousins then we went to Jim and Carol's to see some of Sean's family. I am looking forward to Christmas and getting to spend time with family again.

I went to the dr. today after a week of not feeling well. I have a bad sinus infection which wasn't getting better with the otc meds so I now have a prescription antibiotic which will hopefully knock it out.
When they did my weight it said I had gained 14 pounds in 2 weeks. WHAT???? Really??? I wanted to cry. Dr. Johnson said it was a result of fluid retention from two of the meds I am on and should go away soon. So meanwhile I get to finally meet Cheryl and Kevin with a bloated belly and puffy face. Hooray.
I am going to increase my fluid (water) intake and increase my exercising to see if that helps. I feel so heavy and generally unwell. It really stinks.
The kids had their Christmas program yesterday and did a really good job. I have some cute pictures of my angels to post later on.
I am going to eventually get Christmas cards and pictures out. I feel bad that I haven't done it yet, it just doesn't seem like Christmastime yet. Maybe once I get that done it will help!
Hope you all have a great day, I am off to the pharmacy!!

It's the most wonderful time of the year........

I am really dragging so this will be a short post, but at least something new.
This month is proving to be very busy for us. First we had our night out with Kellie and Brian which was fun and delicious, then we had church, Gabe's sunday school classes mac and cheese fundraiser, then birthday dessert at my mom's. The triplets have their Christmas Program for school on Thursday, then on Sunday we have the Church program. All four of my kids have solos and Gabe has a speaking role!
We have our annual Christmas party at Rhonda and Jeff's, Holiday baking with Lura, and perhaps what I am most excited about -
On the 19th Sean and I are driving to Columbus to meet Cheryl and Kevin!!!! I am so excited!!! I will make sure to take lots of pictures and do a big post! This was what I told Sean I wanted for my birthday and it is actually happening! Woo Hoo!!!! It is going to be so neat to meet these wonderful people that I have grown to care for so much and love to pieces in person!
Christmas Eve is always super busy - We have the traditional potato soup dinner at my mom's, church, which this year will be with Sean's family, and then Christmas Eve celebration with his family at Rhonda's. We usually host it, but our house is too small for the growing family!
Add to that 3 places we need to be on Christmas day and we are busy!
We have done virtually no shopping, so I still need to get busy with that, but all of the presents that are being made are almost done and I am so tickled with them! I have to have a few things matted and framed, but that won't take long. Thankfully a friend of my mom's has a slew of matting supplies and a cutter, so she does it for me for free!
I need to finish my coursework as well and start a serious job hunt. So things are busy, but going well.
I am medicated right now on some Benedryl sinus, so if this makes no sense that is why!

I will do a more exciting post in a bit, but for now this will have to do! Love to you all!!! :)

YAY ME!!!

I just got an email that I received 92% on both my mid term and final! I couldn't be happier with those grades! I am almost done!!!!!!!! :)

I am so close to being done with my course! I just finished up a midterm yesterday and the final this morning for another section. I have a project to do and then I will have one more section! I am so excited! I can't wait to get a job and start working. How crazy is that?! Most people want to stay home, but I can't wait to be able to contribute financially to our family. When I get a job we will be able to save for a house again, Gabe will be able to get his orthodontic work started (we are just waiting for the finances- 15oo dollars down and 150 monthly! His total is over $5500.00~) and Sean won't have to carry the burden of finances alone.
I just hope that someone will see what an asset I will be and hire me! I am going to ooze confidence when I walk in to an interview. They will want to hire me on the spot!